Merry Christmas...I think.

For the first time since I remember, I haven't been around my extended family, in-law or mine, to celebrate Christmas. And I will be the first to tell you, I MISSED IT! Of course it wasn't that we chose to do it that way, but Adam was on call all weekend. I am really not fond of his profession all ready, is that bad? But I am the first to admit how proud of Adam I am. It isn't easy, especially this rotation he is in. It is extremely emotional around this time of the year in his cancer rotation. He is one of the strongest guys I know.
It's probably kind of selfish of me, but I want daddy around on holidays...I am jealous of everyone else. Yep, jealous and selfish; kind of an acceptance admission today I suppose. I want daddy to be able to watch his daughters open their presents, celebrate with their family, go to church, etc. We had all the intentions of making it to 3, yes 3 different masses, but failed every attempt as Adam had to head in to UNMC. Poor Jill, I know, but it hurt Adam too. Yes he chose this profession knowing this is the type of work involved, but man I'd love to have him around more.
I missed celebrating with family. I would've given anything to be in Sioux City with the Burdorf's then traveling to Armstrong to see my family, but there is NO WAY I would leave Adam here over Christmas. He told me several times to pack up and go, but I couldn't take his kids away from him on Christmas. NO WAY! I was kind of in a funk all of Christmas Eve and Day...It just didn't seem the same. Well, this is me hiking up my big girl pants and sucking it up because it will not get any better. Sorry for complaining, but I like to put my thoughts down sometimes. It isn't just tough on me, or his girls, or him....it's all of us. Especially around this time of the year.

But anyway, enough crying on my end. We did get to see Grandma Linda and Grandpa Frank on Christmas Day. They made the trip down to Omaha...thank goodness. That helped my depression funk. We had a blast while daddy was away. We played with the girls new toys, ate a ton of food and played wii. Gma and Gpa even broke out a couple dance moves on Just Dance 2. Poor Aubrey has had a temp and a bug for a couple days, but was able to crack a couple smiles and snuggle them of course. Addy kept them busy building her gifts, shopping, dancing and watching movies. Adam did make it home eventually and we then ate our dinner and played a quick game of cards before gma and gpa took off for Sioux City. Thanks gma and gpa for coming down to celebrate with us. It means more than you will know....there is just something magical about family. I am blessed to have the greatest family and friends. Thanks for your support and love. Without you we would not be half of who we are. Many thanks and Merry Christmas.